Here Comes The Sun

Timmy has asked me this question several times now as we are driving in the car here in the Sunshine State as he puts his hands over his eyes in frustration " Mommy, why the sun always follow me?!"

Today when he said it on our way to church he had the question and added "Why he no stay in his house?" We then explained to him again about the sun, that it wasn't actually following him, and then we told him in China it was actually night time when it's morning here and vice versa.

But his question today got me thinking deeper about the sun and Timmy's life. When he first came into the world all he knew before his birth was darkness, safe and tucked away in his mother's womb. Then out he came, eyes shut tight as he saw the first light andmost likely kicking and crying loudly, as I can't picture him crying softly. The boy has some lungs, but so did my first born! He then slowly opened his eyes and gazed up into his mama's eyes and his eyes became accustomed to his surroundings those first few days nestled safely in her arms.

And then one day the sun did not shine so brightly and his world became suddenly dark as his mother or father placed him on the train. I do not know what he was placed in, was it a box or a basket? Was he placed on the floor of the train or the seat? Did his mother or father or both watch from a distance as the train started moving slowly and were they crying softly not knowing if their son would survive and knowing they would never see him again. Did their world suddenly become dark too? We will never know. At the darkest moment in his life he was no longer safe in his mother's arms and he was left alone. I wish to think that his mother wanted the best for him and that is why she placed him on a train that was headed to the big city of Dalian.

There the police officer at the train station took him to the place he would call home. Even though those first few days of his life and possibly years of his life it may have felt to him that the sun was no longer shining, it was still there, just not as bright as when he first came into this world and placed in his mother's warm arms.

Now that he does have a forever family that loves him, the sun's rays are the brightest for him. He is aware of the sun and thinks it is now following him. I know, without a doubt, that the Son has been following Timmy all his life from day one. He was there when Timmy was placed on that train. He heard his cries as he was searching for the familiar sounds, smells and touch of his mama. He was there watching over him and protecting him to see to it that he made it safely to Dalian. He was there on those dark nights in Dalian on the fourth floor when he was alone with the other children, no one to comfort him if he had a bad dream. (I can't imagine waking up at night and not being able to climb into my parents' bed as I sometimes did when I was young and afraid of the dark.) And he was there seeing to it that Timmy made it safely, seven years later, into his new mama's arms. And finally now the sun is shining brightly for him. His eyes will adjust to the brightness, and he will grow accustomed to a new life of sunshine!